Swirling ink of my mind

I want to help them but I'm to much of a coward to say any thing I watch as they burn while I douse my own flames with ink to afraid to let them die but not strong enough to watch. just blot out my eyes and try not to feel the black is soothing but no happiness will come it only pushes the pain away for awhile I want some thing to hold but I'm to afraid ill break it no just let go move on  can't hold any longer even if i want to
 just me and my ink

source code of identy

 highlight delete object
if only it was that easy but now to delete any thing we have to re-weave the whole entire entity
cut the conecting threads extract replace though it my be in the properplace the rest of the code may reject it
now reprogram each thread from the beginning
its the anotmy of the internet silmilr to our own
one foul line of code pr one bad gene the program fails or the organism dies
>INPUT TYPE="Hidden" NAME="organs" VALUE="now that we cut into the anatomy lets take a deeper look"<
the output that we see is really just the skin of the code but thats all we want to see
we have no desire to see through our own skin to be constantly aware of how we work well it wold be maddening
what could lie with in the source code is infinateand in turn what lie within us?
we may never know until we veiw the source code

If you are reading this...

There is something i want to say but I'm to scared after what they said any way even  if isaid it no good would come of it anyway I'm to old for it any ways

It hard to open up when you've broke so many times. No more killing. No, more killing I can't just givup my identity that easily though
I laughed to day I read that love is like a drug
It's highly addictive your happy as long as you have it but when you don't you'll have an emotional hangover and you'll do anything to get more of it
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